The imitation of a memory
Len smiled as the crowd cheered. He called out his love for the fans as the stage went dark and then Gakupo, Kaito, and himself walked off. Len spun around in his black dress, causing it to be puffed up by a gust of air. He smiled at the two other men. "The performance went great don't you think?" Len's smile quickly left seeing the aggressive stares between the men. Since they had begun to gain more fame and have spent more time around one another, it seems that their relationship had begun to deteriorate. Even worse, Len felt their arguments had been over him. He spoke again attempting to get their attention by grabbing their hands, the red roses tied with black ribbons all in center. "Hey tonight we should really party!" He offered another smile, "We've been going to one show to the next. Tonight it should just be us three." His eyes had a sparkle to them; the dim light of backstage was not enough to dampen them. Gakupo offered a warm smile to Len now. "I'd enjoy that." He patted Len's head. Kaito spoke up quickly now, "That'd be grand. What did you want to do first?"
Len thought for a moment. "We could get a hotel room and be like those rock stars. Just throw a big party with tons of people!" Len smiled giving a small laugh. Gakupo admired Len's slightly naive nature; as long as he had known him Len seemed to have always been trying to act tough, but it always just came off as cute. Kaito smirked liking the idea of their admirers buzzing about such a crazy party, not to mention with so many people he figured he might manage to get Len to himself for a bit. To Kaito and Gakupo, this was no gentle strain brought on by success but an ongoing battle of the heart waged since they both discovered their feelings for Len. Len sensed this tension again and he looked to Kaito asking "Can you get all the party things together?"
Kaito snapped himself out of his deep thoughts. "Huh, oh yes of course." Len then looked to Gakupo "Get a crowd together ok, I'll work on getting a room and we'll meet up there ok." Gakupo nodded as Len's hands slipped out of theirs and he hurried down the hall and into his dressing room. Gakupo turned to face Kaito, "Don't screw this up for him, focus." Kaito huffed. "Maybe you should try not to scare people off; you know everyone thinks you're the least attractive in the group." Gakupo tensed but held in his anger not wanting to show the insult got to him. He started off towards the lobby to find people. Kaito watched him go and shook his head, then went to his dressing room to call in a few favors.
The party was going along well, men and women moved around the cramped room with drinks clutched in their hands. Kaito, Gakupo, and Len found themselves in different rooms' separated as fans surrounded them chatting away endlessly. Len was sitting on a backless chair with legs crossed. He had changed into his white dress featured in one of their music videos. He made sure to give equal attention to those around him, his sweet nature was how people knew him and he liked to keep up that appearance. Their CD played loudly from the stereo within the room Kaito resided in. He was bragging about different things, his charm focused on being a bit of a "bad boy" in the group. He manipulated the fans around him in obvious ways but that was his allure. Gakupo was standing against the wall of the other room with many women around him talking to him about some of his solo work. Gakupo was great at giving people what they wanted to see, he seemed to have a talent for reading desires and but also seemed to be the most mature of the group. Many people were drawn to him because of this.
As the night wore on there was a small hush in the music as the track changed. Gakupo heard his name coming from where Kaito was. Kaito was entertaining a small group of people saying things like "
.yeah of course Gakupo isn't the main talent of our group, Len has the sweet voice and great guitar skills, I know how to play bass and have a very soothing voice. We could honestly get along fine without him
," Gakupo pushed away from the wall and flew across the hotel room, moving people out of his way and once close enough, grabbed Kaito by the shirt. Their eyes' met in a glare.
Gakupo's whole body was tense. "Why don't you say that to my face." Kaito laughed, sounding slightly mad. "You suck! You wouldn't have any fame if it wasn't for Len and I." Gakupo shoved him back onto the chair, smirking for now he felt no reason to hold back "Then why don't you tell everyone who didn't know how to carry a tune or even hold a guitar until I showed him how?" Some of the people gasped, unknowingly encouraging the exchange. They waited to see where the fight was going to go.
Len started to hear the shouting and hurried over. "Gakupo! Kaito! Please stop this!" He tried to call out over the music and the yelling. Kaito stood up getting into Gakupo's face. "You have been holding Len back from the start! You know I have to work twice as hard to keep you from shutting him in!" Gakupo got back into his face. "Len doesn't even care about you I can ask him right now he'd prefer you to be gone!" Kaito grabbed Gakupo but was pushed back. Gakupo drew his sword, which many believed it to be part of his stage clothes but it was in fact, actually real. Kaito produced his gun which was also real. Both had started carrying them since an incident with a deranged fan but now, in their mad hands, these weapons were ready to draw blood from each other. Len knocked over the stereo and screamed. "STOP IT!!!"
Everyone went silent, the morning light was breaking over the horizon but the clouded sky partially obscured it. Len had tears streaming down his face. "You both don't understand! You both don't remember ever being friends but you were!" he wiped some tears away and ran through the crowd, heading out of the room.
Gakupo and Kaito stayed frozen for a moment, soon relaxing their grip on their weapons and putting them away once more. Kaito and Gakupo exchanged glances of rage and then suddenly, a punch was thrown. In the crowded room it was hard to tell who actually did it, but soon the whole room was absorbed in a fight. Kaito broke away after some time and hurried to where he figured Len had gone; the roof. Gakupo managed to get out as well and pursued him. Kaito got into the elevator and made the doors start closing. He flipped off Gakupo by sticking out his tongue and pulling down on his blackened eyelid. Gakupo pounded the door as it closed.
"Damn him." he growled. He spotted the door for the stairs and ran through. His tattered clothes fluttering along as he raced upwards. He wanted to get to Len first in hopes of sharing his side of the story, in hopes of salvaging what was left of their relationship. Kaito leaned against the back of the elevator in thought, he was thinking over an apology. As much as he hated Gakupo now he never wanted to hurt Len.
Len sat on the roof's edge crying, he hated what they had become, but what he hated more was that it was over him. He was the root of their troubles, their anger, their sadness, their madness. He missed the times they spent together, playing music and enjoying themselves, their friendship was more than anything he could ever ask for, their combined love was once so meaningful but now was faded, obscured by hate. Len managed to clear some tears away, he looked out at the street miles away. A strange smile began to break across his face and soon he slowly began to laugh. A thought came to his head repeating, he could not ignore it. It was the solution to this all. His laughing went quiet and only a sad smile remained he stood up and removed his shoes.
The doors opened for both the elevator and the stairs, with Gakupo and Kaito gasping upon seeing Len standing on the edge of the building. They cried out "LEN!" in unison. Len looked back with the sad smile, "Remember
..I love you both." He jumped, quickly falling out of sight, and the grasp of both Kaito and Gakupo. The sounded of Len's words echoed through thier ears.
They heard a crash and felt their hearts break. Both quickly ran down the stairs, practically jumping down floors. There were screams and cries as Len lay peacefully on the ground, with only the slightest bit of crimson coming from him. Other than that, he appeared to be a fallen angel. The black ribbon laid out in a way around him seeming to bind him to the ground. Kaito and Gakupo hurried to him both taking a brief turn holding him and crying out.
Gakupo and Kaito were alone in the church after the funeral service. Rain soaked the grounds outside; the rhythm of the drops could be heard within the silent building. Since the incident, they had felt like imitations of themselves. They had not spoken or seen each other since they were taken in for questioning. Gakupo sat in a pew on one side of the church, Kaito was on the opposite side. Gakupo felt a tear come as did Kaito, both unable to hold it back any longer and immediately broke down.
Kaito spoke up first. "If you had just let it go then none of this would have happened!" Gakupo stood up tears streaming down his face "If you hadn't opened your mouth then this wouldn't have happened!" Both began to approach each other ready to fight once more when a voice from outside seemed to call out. "Kaito! Gakupo!" They both fell silent for the voice was eerie, but unmistakable. They both just stared at each other wanting confirmation from the other about what they had just heard. "Kaito!" the voice went silent "Gakupo!" Gakupo and Kaito stepped away from each other quickly.
Kaito snarled "What
what kind of joke is this, you're sick!!"
Gakupo frowned. "I am not doing this, how dare you accuse me!"
The doors of the church flew open and despite the fact it was raining heavily, the sun was shining. The area outside seemed transformed into a field of yellow flowers with a path of red roses seemingly set specifically for the two of them. They both stared in completed shock. The voice called again now sounding further away "Gakupo, Kaito!" This time they responded by slowly making their way outside, covering their eyes as the brightness blinded them for a moment. The church seemed to vanish and at the end of the path of red roses, that lead up to a hill, was a figure. Kaito and Gakupo ran together, not racing each other but, in a way, working through the patches of stinging thorn roses together.
The flowers brushed against their clothes until they got to the base of the hill. The figure began to whisper "Remember." Gakupo and Kaito slowly ascended the hill. The figure began to become clearer, it was Len who was standing there! His eyes were closed and a smile was on his face, very much enjoying the beauty and peacefulness of the area. One of his eyes appeared scarred though; it was the same eye that been a bit damaged from the fall. Gakupo and Kaito went to either side of him. Len smiled before taking their hands again. Tears came to Kaito and Gakupo again as Len squeezed their hands "I'm sorry, I didn't want you both to forget. The words I spoke, they were not fake."
Gakupo spoke now "If I could redo that night again I would. I would take it all back." Kaito nodded in agreement, causing Len's smile to grow. "I want you both to remember but I don't want you both to be sad. I love you both, I will not let you forget that, I will call it out even if my voice gets hoarse."
Kaito slowly reached over, undoing Len's hair and Gakupo reached down picking a yellow flower and giving it to Len. He smiled smelling it before placing it in his hair.
please" He held their hands once again.
Everything around the both of them began to break away into yellow and red flower petals. Revealing the cemetery they now stood in. Len vanished as well but their hands were not empty because they were holding each others. Gakupo and Kaito looked out at the rain soaked grounds. After a long silence they both spoke "Falling into darkness
" The wind blew as a voice seemed to be carried on it "Remember."